Modern Fairy Tale? <3 AA

Ever since I was a little girl I always dreamed of marrying young, meeting my prince and all the other clichéd stipulations that girls look forward to. Today, during a rare moment of down time, I started to reflect on what divorce and modern love standards, and how they affect us youngsters. I was always naive to believe that divorce was something that was surmountable; it took a front row seat to be able to change my mind. As my parent’s problems continued, and talk of divorce was whispered through my family, I found myself toying with the thought that maybe I was the root of the problem. My brother especially played on my unspoken insecurities. Blow up, after emotional blow up. Siblings battling just as much as the parents. It seemed as if everything could only go downhill from there. My optimism slowly started to seep away, being replaced by negativity and anger. I didn’t really know how to deal with these alien feelings. I found myself breaking down into tears at school, my calm facade slowly chipping away in front of people who just seemed to stare and not care at all. My dad and I had it out a few times, each of us shamelessly calling out each flaw. Emotional wounds that were just starting to heal, were reduced to bleeding and festering. Now, when I think about my future life of living on my own, my future family, I am scared. Sometimes I feel reduced to tears, as if I have no hope for a happily ever after. Would my prince live with me happily ever after? Or would it just be a “I thought we would be together forever” type scenario? Would my future family have to deal with all the drama that I am having to deal with? I don’t believe I have ever been this pessimistic before. I now try to seek out all the negative scenarios that could happen, always dwelling in the “what could go wrong”. I am so thankful to have friends who can see me break down at my all time low, and still care for me enough to bring me back up from my seemingly bottomless pit.

Yours Truly,

Autumn Ann ❤

“Above all else, guard your heart , for everything you do flows from it.” ~Proverbs 4:23 ❤

Madonna was right all along <3AA

You know Madonna’s song, “tick tock”; the lyrics going “Time goes by so slowly for those who wait, no time to hesitate”? Well, that phrase is completley true. And, seeing as how I do not hesitate, I am constantly busy. I fill up every single slot of free time with more work. What can I say? I like to be busy? I’m a workaholic? I’m a busy bee (just a joke)? Alot has passed in these past two months since I’ve been on here. Rachel and I started our junior year in highschool. We threw an awesome suprise party for our best friend Mia’s 16th birthday. And we have been bogged down with homework and performing at football games. I also got the keratin treatment for my hair! I never really realized how nice it is to be able to do different things with your hair without spending 2 hours on it. So all of you out there with easy-to-manage hair? Thank your lucky stars, and pray for those of us who have unmanageable hair! Now that my 17th birthday is coming up, Rachel and a few of my other friends decided they were going to throw me a quasi-suprise party. How does that work? I get to pick the people and the date; the rest is left up to them, and is kept hidden from me. While I’m all for a good suprise, I hate being only semi-concluded. But in 17 days time, I will be in the know, for that is the day that I will turn 17. Gosh, its so hard to grasp the fact that I will be leaving for college in the next 2 years. They just really gives me a reality check. Well, that’s all for now! Gotta catch up on my beauty sleep!

Always,

Autumn Ann

Addicted Nerd <3 AA

So, I believe I am addicted to Twitter. I was bad enough when it came to Facebook, but I just HAD to get a Twitter account. Now I spend countless minutes looking at other tweets, checking up on my 11 followers (pitiful, I know), & following other random people. What can I say? I’m a nerd, an addicted nerd. But, my Blackberry makes it so easy to check everything, I just can’t help it! But, I did start the Twitter to open up the blog to other people, and to get more ideas for our blog. So, here I am listening to Kids by MGMT resisting the urge to check my Facebook & Twitter yet again. Knowing me, I will probably succumb to that want in about 5 minutes.
Ta-Ta,
Autumn Ann ❤

Life Lessons <3 AA

Everyone is always trying to shove advice down my throat (I’m pretty sure you can understand my viewpoint). Wear this, take this class, go to this gym…. yada yada yada. I know that most have good intentions when trying to help me along. And, sure, their hard-earned wisdom does count for something. But, I don’t want to go down the path that maybe that person would’ve gone on, or did go on. My goal is to make my path. One piece of advice that stuck? Simple is usually best. I learned this when my mother and I decided to do a complete overhaul of my room. It feels so nice having everything simplified. I got rid of a huge bulking cream coloured dresser, and moved a white plant stand out as well. No clutter? I never thought it was possible! I love my new, chic, and improved bedroom. I’ve realized that de-cluttering my room helped me to feel more relaxed and at ease, so I decided to de-clutter and simplify my life. How exactly do I plan to do that? Easy. I am making a list of all the things, people included, that cause me stress (or what I think causes me stress!). I know I sound like a self-help booklet, but I really do believe this will help me! I’ve had a couple of stress-related panic attacks; and I don’t want those to happen again. I’m gettting a gym membership because I forgot how much working out can be when you’re with friends. I also decided to not be afraid to ask for help from my mom. I know now that all it takes is to ask her to meet me at Starbucks and we can have a private little chat. It helped last time to just get everything out. Even if i started crying like a little two-year-old in public (a nice gentleman handed me some napkins once he saw me tear up), my mom helped me get through it. Dan Zadra, the CEO of Compendium, Inc. agrees with me, “Live your life so that your children can tell their children that you not only stood for something wonderful- you acted on it”.

Until next time,

Autumn Ann

P.S. I did dye my hair a medium reddish-brown. It didn’t really turn out all that different from my natural hair coulour. Once I get it somewhat fixed, I will post pics. 🙂

4th of July! & Summer Bucket Lists <3 AA

Red, white, & blue are everywhere! Flags, shirts, banners, anything that even remotely relates to our great country is being used today to celebrate the 4th of July! I am going to see my little sister, Isabelle Annalee, be in her first parade; as a cheerleader! 🙂 I can’t wait to make smores over a little bonfire & watch the fireworks from afar! Ahhh, this is always one of the highlights of my summer. To keep my summer interesting for the next month & a half, I made a summer bucket list. Pierce 2nd hole in ear, dye hair (I’m a hair dye virgin), keratin treatment, get a job, & expand my wardrobe! 🙂 I already have the hair dye, its just a matter of when I’ll get to actually dye my hair! Wish me the best of luck! P.S. Don’t be afraid to go all out, because I sure plan to! 🙂 Happy 4th of July!
❤ Autumn Ann

Ocean View <3 AA

What a wonderful day today is. 🙂 I am running on 2 hours of sleep, my Energy Dots, and a delectable, homemade blueberry scone. Why? 2 words: my mom. Not that I am totally resentful. I actually had some fun in the process. Well, I’m getting ahead of myself; I haven’t even explained what I’m talking about. My mother decided to start her own little booth/table at our local market on the bay. She makes an assortment of headbands, jewelry, tutu’s, & even some clothes. So today was her first selling day, she didn’t know till yesterday that she was actually going to set up shop. Anywho, we stayed up all night making more baubles & putting the finishing touches on others. We get here extra early to set up, & my mom promptly sends me off to babysit. Where do I go? Straight to the water. Oh my! How nice it feels to just recline by the water on a gorgeous sunny day, with my white Ray•Ban’s on, & the breeze acting as mother nature’s AC. Yep, this is the good life! 😀
Sunny wishes,
Autumn Ann ❤

Summer Blues <3<3 AA

This summer has been a bummer. So far, at least. This crazy Florida weather has me wanting to pull out my hair in frustration. I’ve felt like a hermit these past few weeks of summer vacation. I’m ready to get out there & behave like a teenager my age, well, somewhat like that. So I decided to plan a group trip to the beach with a few of the girls to just relax & get out of town. But what does Mother Nature decide to do the day before our get-away? Just have a ball & invite thunder & lightning, rain, wind, & it wouldn’t be a party without hail! As a result of Mother Nature’s reckless partying, the power has failed. As you can see, I am in a bit of a soured mood due to my summer blues.
Ta-Ta for now,
AA ❤

Oh, How I Love That Little House of Blue <3AA

Muah! kissy face ;*

So I have recently fallen in love! But, not with a person, with a shake place, well, to be more specific, a nutritional shake place! I’ve gone everyday for the past week! And, to top it all off, I’ve managed to drop 4 lbs just by replacing one of my meals with one of their delicious shakes! This little gem is called Blue House, the owners are distributors of HerbaLife. For 5 bucks, you get an aloe vera shot, tea, & a shake of your choice! Oh, how addicted I am, I evenly constantly brag about visiting on my facebook status! 🙂

Me & Rach have been under tremendous stress these past few weeks due to our 2 AP exams being right around the corner. I have already experienced an AP exam, but these are Rachel’s first! Cramming & making flashcards all the time is no fun, actually being able to sneak away to facebook or to the blog is like a mini-vacation. Not to mention or crammed dance & cheer schedules! All I know is that these next few weeks are gonna be anything BUT a piece of cake (or a Blue House shake).

I finally got some time to upload my New York pictres to my facebook page, I just need to edit my faves to put on here. Oh, how I miss New York! It just seemed so welcoming, no one was looked at funny; even a drunk guy on the street corner baa-ing for a beer on St. Patty’s day (yes, this actually happened). I felt as if I was equal, I fit in with all the other people there, I even got asked for directions 3x! And, get this, I was able to give them directions successfully! 🙂 I believe I want to live there for a short time, just to experience it & get this yearning for a big city life out of my system. I am planning on taking a campus visit, because the original college I wanted to go to does not offer the courses that I need to jumpstart my career of being a psychiatrist.

I can’t really conjure anymore blog-worthy thoughts… soI must bid you adieu<3.

So Long, & Farewell!

❤ Autumn Ann

Top of the Rock Observation Deck 😀

 

Just kickin' back in Central Park! 😉

Empire State of Mind <3<3 AA

Sorry it’s taken me so long to update you guys on our glorious trip to New York! Between all the makeup work, cheerleading tryouts, and SGA campaigning that’s been going on, I’ve been one busy chick. Any who, back to that marvelous city of hopes and dreams! So many urban legends were busted during my short stay. All the New Yorkers we met were actually pretty amiable, very unlike the New Yorkians I was told about. Oh, and famous hot dog stands? Gross as can be. But of course, I am a bit biased in my judgement because I already hated the wretched mystery meals. Oh my! I can’t believe I haven’t mentioned the shopping yet! It was an AMAZINGLY FANTASTICALLY WONDERFUL wonderland of stores. So many multi-level stores! I seriously thought I had died and gone to Heaven when I walked into a 3-story American Eagle! But that was mediocre compared to the other boutiques and shops I went into. It is a shopper’s Paradise! I have to say, my fave parts were China Town and Little Italy. China Town was a bit sketchy, but had cheap and delicious food! Little Italy was on the more expensive side, but the food was absolutely, breathtakingly amazing! Need proof? I think I gained about 5 pounds! The Broadway shows were also entertaining! We saw “Catch Me if You Can” and “Billy Elliot”. I was a bit confused in the latter, but none-the-less, it kept my attention! We also got to stand outside the famed NYU campus. Oh! If only I was bright enough to get in! I think we might be planning a campus visit pretty soon! Pretty good excuse to take the family if you ask me! 😉 I can’t really think of much else… except for the fact that I was in the same building that Taylor Lautner once occupied! We visited the Top of the Rock; which, if I am correct, is the 2nd largest observation deck in New York. That’s also where NBC studio is located (again, if I am correct. I have a pretty bad time at remembering facts!)! We also got to visit Central Park, where we saw the cutest squirrel. The poor thing was in distress! We had a mini-freakout, but we were pretty much forced to leave the poor thing in its misery. 😦 Well, I can’t much think of anything else, except that I made Varsity Cheer! 🙂 I was so happy! But, no further info on the SGA elections, voting takes place next week.

Truly Yours,

❤ Autumn Ann

Hopes and Dreams <3 AA

        It feels like forever since the last time I was actually able to post something. And, I forgot to tell you guys that we are leaving for New York on Wednesday, at 1 p.m.! We are so excited! I have been working so hard in order to pay off the trip and to have an ample amount of spending money. But it was oh so worth it! 🙂 Any who, I decided to post a few pics, and chat with you about my hopes  and dreams.

Ever since I was a girl, I always wanted to leave a mark on this cruel, yet loving world. I’ve always wanted to help people, or animals, in any way I could. clichéd? Yes, very. But, that’s always what I wanted to do. I imagined myself as a beautiful doctor, who always took the utmost care of her patients, with a loving husband, amazing kids, gorgeous house, nice cars, and the wardrobe to match. Like I said, if this isn’t clichéd, well, then I just might not know what the meaning of clichéd is. Even though I’m not musically inclined, I love music and dancing,  (and I’m pretty sure Rachel can attest to that!). My fave bands of the moment, as you well have read about in previous blogs, are Neon Trees and Civil Twilight. I have been lusting after seeing one of their concerts for a while now. But, that dream must be put on hold, but only for now. Another passion of mine is traveling, I want to party on the beaches of Brazil, tan on the islands of Greece, swim in the Dead Sea….well, you get the picture! After my amazing, grandiose wedding,I plan to hop on a  plane (or whatever transportation will get me there) with my new husband to many exotic places. Our own, mini, world tour. I still haven’t quite fine tuned all the details, though. Jewelry and scarves are some of my must-haves. I probably have about 15 to 20 scarves, and about 3 or 4 jewelry boxes of jewelry. Why do I have so much? Well, there are 4 girls in my immediate family. And, so we usually share things that come “one-size-fits-all”, i.e. the jewelry and scarves. Basically, when the temperature starts to drop, I have a different scarf for every weekday, probably for about a  whole month. At least I can honestly admit to having an obsession!

   As I was flipping through the glossy pages of my April 2011 edition (still hard for me to grasp the concept that it is 2011) I came across an ad for a contest. I immediately snapped a pic with my LG Ally and sent it to Rachel. The rules were easy, to learn the dance moves, then perform them in a video and send them in! With so many great prizes, I told her we just HAD to do it! She quickly agreed, and we are making plans about when we will be able to start! 🙂   I’ll leave the info in a comment, just in case you want to check it out!

   As I was saying, we leave for New York in 15 hours, 37 minutes, and 36 seconds! And, the clock is ticking…! My goal is to take at least 15 pics per day while we are there! Even if they are pics of us riding on the bus, whatever, but I hope to reach that goal! And, to keep you updated as much as possible! 🙂

Ta-Ta for now,

Autumn Ann ❤ 

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